For the past few years people have been telling me to be myself.  They only stop when I pretend to be the me I was 10 years ago.  This exhausts me and makes me close myself off more and more.  Each time I have to make an effort to be the old me I get further and further away from that person.  I already don't recognize her and I am starting to despise her.  However, I also have gotten to the point where I despise the current me.  I am not good enough for anyone.  Not my friends, family nor my young son.  I have no interest in trying to be in a relationship when I can't feel comfortable in my own skin.  I wish people would be content in letting me be myself, whoever I am right now.  Maybe I could find my way back to who I once was.